I remember countless times sitting in my closet, crying because I couldn't stand the way I looked in gym clothes.
Last year in July I made the decision to compete, not knowing or realizing how much of a positive impact it would have on my life or how much it would change my life in ways I never thought possible. I first got into fitness when I started dating my husband 7 years ago. I have always gone to the gym, but just went through the motions. Went through the motions of lifting, of walking slowly on the treadmill. I didn't monitor what I ate, I had a bad attitude whenever I went to the gym and to be honest I wasn't the most pleasant person to be around; especially when I was with my husband.
I remember countless times sitting in my closet, crying because I couldn't stand the way I looked in gym clothes. So what did I do? I made a conscious decision to change it. My husband and I have always gone to local shows and go to Mr. Olympia every year, and every time I would go to a show I always told myself, “I want to do that, I want to compete and step on stage.”
It wasn't until July 3rd, 2016 that I started making that dream a reality. I sat in my coach's
office and asked him what category I would compete in and without hesitation he said "figure, no question". I didn't get it, I didn't understand how he could see my shoulders and legs and "figure competitor" structure under my 30% body fat. I am so grateful that he could see past my imperfections and struggles deep down to my potential.
My and coach and I decided that a longer prep would be the best and I am so glad that I listened to him because my 9 months of prep was exactly what I needed. That’s how I long I needed to get there not only physically, but emotionally and mentally. The beginning was a definite struggle, especially the food. Food is such a social thing, but I would tell myself, "Hey it will be there after my competition". Yes it was a big adjustment, but the amazing thing about this is that it is not just a habit, but has become my way of life. I honestly love prepping, I love the way the food makes my body feel, I love the structure, and I love the changes I get to see with my body.
Prep life is amazing, but man do I love stepping on that stage. The second I stepped on that stage under those lights I knew I was hooked, it was the icing on cake, stepping on stage made me feel at home. After finals a couple people backstage asked what I placed, and I honestly could not remember and I had to physically look down at my trophy to tell them my placings. Funny I know, but I just fell in love with the experience and went without expectations.
Backstage I met IFBB Pro Victor Martinez and he gave me the most incredible compliment, he said when I walked out on stage for the first time in the True Novice Division (the class for first time competitors), he couldn't believe I had never competed before. That is all I wanted, I didn't go in expecting to win or even place. I just wanted to step on stage and have people say wow, this is her first competition?
Was it a lot of work? Yes of course it was, but most everything in life that's worth something is hard and you have to work for it. Throughout this journey I had the endless support from my amazing husband Bo and my friends and
family. I always would make excuses of why I couldn't do this, I can almost pinpoint to the day that I started to succeed and see my body change, it was when I changed my mindset. I stopped focusing on other competitors, on the negative and started focusing on the positive. I honed in on me and my mindset, my goals… Me vs Me. Push the excuses aside and go for what you want in life. MAKE your dreams a reality and take your life to the NXT LVL!